i forgot how boring home was now i remember

So remember way back when I said I had some happy happy good secret news?

Well its off so I can say now what it was.

Was going to get back with my ex-fiancee, supposed to go back to Kamloops next week and see him.

And now its done.

One upside to my super shit is my best buddy Darcy is coming up tomorrow, downside to that I am broke as fuck already and its costing me 200 dollars to get him here so I'm going to be broker than broke. I'ma be Toni Braxton back in the early 00's and that's broke folks.

We shall have vonderful stories to tell and lots of photo proof of our shenanigans. hoora

I honestly feel like the stupidest person in the world right now.

Naive about being naive now that some serious naivety, agree?

To think someone could love you enough to change even the slightest amount.

To think somone could change for their own fucking sake.

Like fuck me in the ass with a spoon right.

There isn't a damn person in this world who knows that loving someone shouldn't hurt so fucking much. That it isn't being told what to do or putting yourself aside and making up lies and excuses for someone who is simply lacking in the common sense/adult world/responsibilty/etc. department.

Trusting the person you love most is the stupidest thing a person can do.

I mean I'm no innocent. I did him wrong. I cheated. I lied too.

You can't love someone, you cannot honestly say you love me after all you've thrown away.

So Laura, have the jail-bird drunk, he is alllll yours, just maybe keep in mind to wear a helmet when you're around him when he's drunk, I didn't so I've been knocked out a few times, not fun.

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