lips like a bow soft like a ribbon

Pitch forks be coming my way if I don't post here eh.

I started jewelery making.

You can buy.
You want to buy?

'Cause you can buy.

One of a kind
Once I clean my room and find my camera you shall see.

This was taken last Thursday, the last day I had a drink. Well I think I had closer to 12 but you get what I'm saying, Kelly has been sober a week in one hour and a half!
So no more boozed up Kelly shots, she's going to be a square non-drinker.

Which is good because it means no more embarrassing photos like this will be taken of me and put on Facebook.

I hate you Blogger sometimes, you always fuck with my posts.

I also can't believe how fat I used to be.

I was 140 lbs once upon a time.

I'm 108 lbs now and could still stand to lose more and still look more than healthy. I was a bored eater. And an over-eater.

I'm fucking bored so I'm going to go jack it or paint, most likely paint. I want to be in Kamloops so nice there. Its shit here.

Not gonna lie I have a serious veggie pizza craving with three cheese ranch dip... mmm

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Actually I guess since the cat is on my lap and not moving so my ass is still parked in front of the computer I can talk a little about why I'm quitting drinking.

I'm an alcoholic. Have been since I was 12. Grades 8 and 9 before I left highschool to homeschool I'd show up drunk at lunch time once, twice a month and to EVERY school dance.

I've done a lot and I mean a lot of stupid things while intoxicated and at only 20 I've done and seen more than most people in their 30's - and almost always for alcohol.

Alcohol ruined the my relationship. I was going to get married and have a baby but instead spent all my time, money, and effort into getting drunk to escape to a place that was even more unhappy than the one that was already in my mind.

I want a life.

I want to be a wife and a mom. I really honestly don't care WHO you are but you have no right to tell me I'm too young to want those things.

Maybe you are content being a young partier, flirting and jumping from person to person, having short meaningless relationships, maybe you just are genuinely happy being single and independant, doing your own thing all the time.

I want more than that. I did the partying, I did the fucking, drugs and drinking and I'm done.

I want the traditional life with the person I love. So there it is.

No more booze 'cause I literally want to be a square.

Plus my meds don't mix with alcomahol vurry well.

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