one bourbon, one scotch, and one beer

Really unhappy right now.
Really manic right now.
Gained 7 lbs and on my small 5'3" frame it look like it might as well be 20 lbs. So petty but I am very upset about it.
Having had an eating disorder a few years ago gaining weight is akin to losing something you hold dear.
Eating disorders and the mentality gained by having one never goes away completely.
Dont think I am going to blog anymore, no not because I gained weight.
It's personal.


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you say love is a hell you cannot bear and i say gimme mine back and then go there for all i care

Bros before hos
disagree on the sidelines.
Fight for a fee, the man needs a maid.
The maid needs a maid.

Bros before hos is a rule, read the guidelines
you trouble me
your breasts heave when you sing
your mouth should be working for me for free.

Sewing up the fold ‘cause I’ve been laid up,
will you put on the fire for me,
draw the bath and remind me to eat?
You won’t need a real job,
you won’t need a real job because I would love to pay for you,
you could be a good wife to me.
I would love to pay for you,
you are the maid for me.

tinkle time

 BLANG BLANG

 Eat your heart out Horatio you fuckin' cunt.

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when i kiss your mouth i want to taste it

So last night we decided on a date night numbertwo, one where we actually went out. We went and played lazer tag, I came in third cottonball was first YAY honey! Just as we first go into the room he comes screaming in behind me and shoots me even though we were on a team haha it was grand so I shot him back. Twice. Then we took a trip out to my parents usual campsite where they were not and were pissed about that so went to this adorable hole in the wall diner on the side of the highway in McLure called, appropriately, the McLure Restaurant where the folk who owned the place moved at a snail's speed but were very nice. The woman actually sat down at a table behind us and watched us enjoy our food it was bizarre. I think she liked my outfit.

You can call this car the mess-mobile.

I ate so much I gained 20 pounds apparently.

This is the anatomy army we won from Fun Factor after lazer tag. Adds a nice touch to the car I think.

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speak your heart, don't bite your tongue

So here is what my morning looks like. Last night was no wait YESTERDAY was interesting. Went to Steve-o's to hang out for a bit they ended up opening a bottle of wine at like 12 if that. I had one glass and was right fucking blasted stupid so we decided then to get all dolled up to sit in Caity's car while she ran into the booze store to get vodka and then came to my mother's house and I had two vodka and was REALLY stupid at that point and Steve-o was like lets make out Kelly so I did, we did. Cottonball got mad understandably. So then the ladies left and we had a silly fight for a while and I realized I was being a douche bitch so I stopped doing that then everything worked out and we got pizza and beer for our date night it was really a nice way to spend date night actually. Then I passed OUT like, buzzed on pizza silly fool bombed lights out.

That Rockstar is from last night...

FINALLY got my extensions I'm so stoked they match my hair color so perfectly it was just meant to be. Great deal too only 50 dolla! I now officially look like a barbie doll my mission to not is now completely fucked. Beware my smudgy makeup face. No seirously.

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you're simply wasting my time

So lemme tell you a little something about Valium. When taken in a massive dose such as the 70 mg I had to take last night it does NOT help you sleep but damn does it mess up your dreams. Might be the Abilify I take that is causing the increase in my sleeplessness but fuck man this is day two with no more than 3 hours sleep plus terrible nightterrors thanks a lot doctor shrink. Anothing thing I'm choked about is my computer won't allow me to pull up my photos file in my documents WHAT THE FUCK COMPUTER!?!? I hate people who eat low fat or lesser calorie mayo and low fat salad dressing. Big deal you're saving yourself from 20 calories. Here's an idea, stop eating shit food and diet sodas and you won't be so worried about the fucking vinaigrette on your bed of fucking lettuce. On that note I ate a lot for the first time in a week yesterday. Cottonball was very proud of my accomplishment. I eat full fat mayo and ranch. Guess what I am not fat. Cause I don't eat like a horse daily and get the occasional bit of excersize in there. I strayed from my train of thought. I'm going to go make myself a cup of tea without sugar and have a menthol then have some cereal for serial for breaky. Peace yo.

Had a cocksucking piece of grass in my beer.

I like bush.

The band.

Destroyed that chocolate malt cup with Natalie... then ate the wood BAHAHAH

Excuse my fang.

I poured beer in that cup once upon a time.

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i've got a manual that tells us how we have to fuck

Panic manic galore. Went to the head shrinker today he said just that, put me on Valium dear god. His words were manic episodes last up to 6 weeks mine's been 4 already haha worst one ever is the truthes yo. Lost some libs cause of it but ate ihlaed a sub like an hour ago it was awsome. I love weddings. I want to have one soon. Blah I want marriage damnit. Anyway here's some love.

Check uh the hips yo

Bless you Terrie... Bless you

Babysitting my mother's house and animals all weekend joyous wonderous stellar stella good times. Tried to watch the Runaways what a shit movie. The drugs and sex were fun fun but honestly man those "actors" were committed eh? Plus seeing Dakota Fanning a sexy sex pot was not right, she's an actress yeah and growing up but it grossed me out she's what, 13? If I was Kristen Stewart macking on her during fimling I'd have felt like such a pedo.


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